My mind and my mind and my thoughts, my recurring thoughts. 

The gush of wind, and the direction and focus of life changes, just so quickly and within this split second, things become something we never have expected. It is all too good or all too bad? Even up till today, I'm still struggling to find the purpose and meaning in life. I mean yeah, we came out pure, what about now? All the scars and wounds we have hurt ourselves with, will they ever disappear and fade within the skin? I guess so.

Turmoils and wrecking of minds. I have enough. My mind has never been able to circulate so many cells just to come to a consensus of what is really happening in my life now, like yes literally. Sometimes, we just don't know what we have done to deserve all these, be it good or bad things. I feel so disorientated and depressed at the sight of myself, who's currently in a state of hysterical mess but part of me is still maintaining the calm and cool me. But wait, aren't we descending back to having many masks in our lives when facing people? I really don't know how to face it. Could if be so much things have happened within such a short period of time, you get traumatized or numb to things around you. You begin not to feel for anyone, or anything, everything inside you just got hardened, including your heart, well I guess that goes without saying. Sometimes, you feel tears. But up till today you still can't figure why you have such bad nights. Could it be that some of us have been holding back so much or this overwhelming emotions at the back of us is beginning to lose its balance? Either ways, how can we successfully manage it. If only escape is a reasonable and effective choice in our lives, I'd gladly take that expressway to solve all my problems. Maybe, it just covers up the short term hurt, but subsequently, we will get used to it.


Happiness? I have forgotten what is a genuine smile or laughter. Is life just so stiff we just keep generating like a robot? Or maybe more like some made pessimistic person. Where is the good and greatness in life we used to see. Or maybe we have so much of these good and goodness we took it for granted and hereby asking for more again? I have no idea. What is a choice, I hate making a yes or no decision. Made up my mind will I?

Cooler than you. 

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