Another fun-filled day. Volleyball takes rule of my life now. But seriously need to buck up on many areas as competition is coming and hope to get into the main team as well. It's tiring shit. Trying to put in all your efforts to prove you have potential. Maybe, it's cos' of many reasons. But I have to make full use of it now, no regrets, can't regret, need to achieve at least something. So today went out with 2 of them for lunch and another friend tagged along. Thought we're all going to just stay for lunch, but after dealing some stuffs back in school, we went to Junction 8 and ate and shop. Gosh. I had like 3 meals of MacDonald's today. Can you imagine how much darn calories I have to burn... Talking about exercise. I need to seriously grow vertically and not horizontally. I've thought about skipping everyday and taking naps, but plans crashed, everyday I'm like running wildly around this tiny little red dot with my awesome friends. Yes, need to save money urgently. Fathers' Day is coming, my sister's birthday is coming soon too. Why can't money drop from the sky like rain! Okay. So I'm determined to do everything I've planned beforehand. Talked a lot of stuffs today and yes, need to do some soul-searching. Hmm, and for volleyball, all I can say is I can do much more better. Come out of your comfort zone Cass.

Stop avoiding. You can't hide forever, you can't keep questioning yourself the same question over and over again. Even if you're really shocked and puzzled, you don't have to resort in doing those kind of stuffs. It just make me feels like you're guilty for stepping out of my life. No you aren't in it in the first place. Pluck up your courage and face reality. It's not scary, it's just tough to apprehend. It's not easy, it's just complex. It's like life resistance, but we still have to keep on moving no matter how strong the resistance is cos' we're technically stronger than it. You had said it but why can't yourself stick to those words. And yet making so many detours but still found yourself back the old place. Have you ever wondered why, you can't get what you want. Maybe the problem doesn't lie in those people, but you. You oversee too many things, took too many things likely and frankly speaking, cherishing those minor moments and memories? Well maybe we're too young to appreciate such things in life, or don't have any idea how to appreciate them, but at least say before leaving. I just hope it doesn't turn things the other way round. Forget all these. Go back. Nothing had happened. It was just a another lesson learnt in life. What's yours will eventually be yours. Maybe you're like an angel sent from above, trying to convey some advice to me. I really truly appreciate it. Like really. Or else I'd be crashing down and still on the way of standing up again. We're no one to interfere each other's life. 

These days, I think I have and need to sleep early. Hate the fact that I look like a zombie whenever I look myself in the mirror every morning. Energy totally drained from morning training. So before holiday ends... I need to grow some height and save more money. Target to reach! 


Sometimes I do question it too. 

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