Once again, another week has passed. It's Sunday, my favourite day of the week. Week days have been as busy as ever. Now, what I look forward to, is just volleyball. Not much motivation to do anything these days. Yes, thank you for pushing me down again. And yes, another downcast post.

Do you really know what to give, what's the right thing to give. Do you really know what I want and how I want to be treated. No, you don't ask, don't make an effort to do anything to us. It's just like normal friends, or more to an extend, text buddy? I have no idea but you just seem so hard to read.. I don't wanna get dump again and how I've been manipulated before. That feeling, when one day he makes you feel important, the next day, he just  treats you like any body else. You get it, it isn't cos' you ain't giving enough, but it's the way you approach and deal with this. If you're in a relationship with someone, part of you, revolves around he/ she isn't it? Fuck all these insecurities, uncertainty. I don't want to experience another trauma. But it seems like it can't be helped and you still keep going the same way. Why can't you get my hints.. and just if possible, ask me if anything's happening. But I guess, you didn't really bother. Am I giving too much, or are you giving too little? 是不是谁给得太少，还是谁放得太多？Or is it really me, who's losing confidence in it and hence all these doubts? Or I'm really being over-paranoid. Maybe.. It's just too hard and too little time to recover all those that has happened.

Yes so exhausted all over again. Don't even have the mood to think about these stuffs. Yes, not worth it., but here I am back to square one. What's wrong with you Cassandra. Why do you get beaten down so easily. My weekends were horrible to be honest. Filled with tears, but today was awesome cos' I get to see my lovely church friends. Anyway, it's stupid to watch BigBang- Day by Day music video and crying. Well, it's super touching and no matter how many times I watch, it never fails to make me tear. Ugh, why is this so complication, so hard to comprehend. If only I have the power to read people's mind, it'd save so much trouble. I just want a little happiness.

Leave, move on, but don't forget those good memories. 

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