I suck in many areas, particularly in the exterior; as what others think so. 

I'm not perfect, but I still tend to judge myself unnecessarily.
It brings my confidence and self-esteem level down.
Yes it did.
So it is now.
I have a low self-esteem.
Even during train rides, I like to corner myself to the end of the cabin.
What's the problem?
Change of society?
Maybe it is.

Pretty people gets everything. Pretty people gets everything without spending much effort. What about me? What's the point of sacrifices, sweat and hard work? It's all bullshit. In the end, I still lost. I wouldn't say it's unfair, but that's just how life tends to mingle with us. You said it's confidence. But I doubt. At the end of the day, people still judges you with the appearance hang on you. I don't find any point having inner beauty. When is there going to be anyone that'll be appreciative and even give a damn to it. I guess, it'll be just me. All these smiles and laughters were so surreal. It just cover those scars that I wouldn't let others see, it just act as a platform where people will think you're good enough for them. Oh well, what's the use of saying all these. Nothing's going to change. I'm still going to school tomorrow with the stereotyping feeling, with the same mask worn for 14 years. I'm sick of it. This is the I-don't-know-how-many number of times I've been repeating; I'm really sick and tired of all these. When will that one day be here for me to come out of this hell, to get out of this poor self-esteem zone, to see everyone the same, to not feel inferior anyhow and be confident. When, just when will that day come....



Mmm, here are some outdated photos.

2 round of presents from KoYong and Cassandra Khoo

Thanks so much for those who've helped celebrated by birthday. :) Really appreciate those cards. :')

Don't mind me giving you a second chance. 

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