Days have been like a roller-coaster ride. Hardly had any time for my own recreational activities. Rushing homework and assignments, I really hope there's ample of time for me to utilise.. It's been.. incredibly hectic. Councillor, studies, CCA, everything is taking up so much time.. Well, the main problem I always face, and usually face, is none other than relationships. 

Yeah. Too young and immature for this. But as time brings great changes to us, we kinda get adapted to the way society is leading us. It's always after something that happened, which will make us stronger and wiser. But considering other factors, what's slowing me down. Have you ever get reject, or dumped by someone you wholeheartedly love, someone you completely trusted, someone you never thought that you'll lose and someone who actually promised you that he'll never leave? Empty promises. Lies and more lies. You said you threw the key away and yet... This happened like maybe a couple or more months ago. Yes, what's so good about that girl, I really really really really like to ask you. But nah, fact remains the same. No matter how much I try to detach myself from reality, it never fails to struck me back. Yes, life is a dog, it charges at you whenever you provoke it. Now, it's all cos' of you that had killed a little part of me inside. You, triggered the fear in me, torn my dignity apart, took away the humane and brought me to this state today. I'm too tired to do anything to repent cos' I know it takes time and studies and everything, it's too hard and too many to tackle.

I lose faith in love. No, I don't love you, not anymore. I've found someone else better. And it's hurting him cos' of my foolishness and stubbornness. I was too naive to behave like this. It's all cos' of you, why do I get so defeated and intimidated.. What are you, really, to trash me like that, to point me down as simple as this. Nature gonna take its course. Everything will sooner or later be better. Even if it isn't entirely resolve, problems numbed, feelings numbed, maybe this is a blessing in disguise outcome. 

Just don't give up, please.

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