Maybe you've noticed, I deleted the previous raging and infuriating post. I find it somehow stupid, to rant here. I mean like, it doesn't make any sense at all. It's like, just trying to prove I don't have to guts to actually tell you straight in the face. By the way, please reply my message cos' you haven't done so.

So well, today since I'm again, feeling like I've been tortured by boredom, I shall write some crap.

Dreams, come in many different definitions. It can be the thoughts and pictures in the mind that come mostly during sleep, or more prevalent, the ambitions and goals one wants to achieve. Some dream big, some doesn't really dream. Are dreamers good? I have no answer to that. But, a dreamer is sure conscious of what he is dreaming. He analyzes and judges the dreams he dreamed. We can consider a dreamer as someone with bright vision. When you dream, you sort of bring yourself into another picture, trying to fit into that picture, creating many different kinds of scenarios in it. Gradually, when you're used to 'dreaming', you'll realized whether some things are worth or not worth in doing it. Take being a famous singer as an example. The most fundamental thing a singer does; sing. Alright. So, you thought of being another Justin Bieber. Okay. He has fame, wealth and so on. So, you idolized and dreamed of being like him, that's why you said you want to be a singer. But soon, you're awaken back to the factual world (I don't want to use the term 'reality'), you realized you couldn't sing, or supposedly, you couldn't sing that well. Nonetheless, you still imagine yourself as a famous singer, travelling around the world. Great, isn't it? You're feeling successful in your dreams. But, dreams are just dreams, it will never to live if you continue doing nothing to it. In your dreams, you may be singing like Mariah Carey. But in actual fact, you couldn't even sing. See what I'm trying to say. It's totally alright to dream, big. You can dream of being a super model, a multi-millionaire, the next US President, etc. But, are they against your wills? You want or dream to be a famous singer, but you cant sing. That's just building castles in the air; it's not gonna happen. It's something about knowing your limits, but that's okay. Since there's a problem, there's always a solution for it. So, knowing you can't sing well or as good, try finding ways to improve in it; go for vocal classes, sing more, take part in schools' mini performances, sing to some professional (like your aunts, etc) and ask them for comments and remarks. Yes, that's how you can make it, that's what build the path of success to you, that's where you're so near to granting your dream, that's how amazing dreams can whirl us about. It's similar. Dreaming big is natural. It'll be more eccentric if someone doesn't even have dreams, or least, knowing what he wants. We may not be the best in everything, but it's the efforts that count, the hard work and every mean of improvements we've put in. I don't have anymore to add on. We know it ourselves the best, whether will we be plain dreamers, or realistic dreams, will we be, in ten years down the road, the successor of our dreams, or at the edge of still not knowing what to do. (To be honest, I wrote this cos' I was reading through some magazines, and came across list of different categories of universities. I thought I should have a good judgement in deciding my future, so yeah.)

Reality is cruel, guess that's what some of us always think. I can't deny to that fact. Or maybe, just disagree 5% of it? No one likes to be shaken back to reality some times. It's pretty melancholy, somehow when you're back in reality, you figured out the dozens of matters, troubles, problems, situations, arguments, quarrels, etc you have to resolve. It's really annoying and nerve-killing to see how problematic your life can be at times. So, I went online to find the definition of reality and came upon two of it. One of it makes sense, but that's a mundane one. I think the other meaning really got hang of what we're thinking nowadays. It says: A thing that is actually experienced or seen, especially when there is grim or problematic: "the harsh realities of life". Look at the chaotic society we have to face everyday. New inventions, standard of education and learning is expanding and gradually rising, workload increasing, competitions between local and foreign, unfairness, uneven distribution of advantages, high taxes, heavy traffic, inconsiderate citizens, disruptions in city, crimes, peer pressure, office pressure, advanced technologies leading in more wealth, unexpected news, disasters, shares downfall, and everything. When we got a break or vacation from all these, being away from all these forever-coming-out problems, we'll still be that worrywarts. I'm not trying to be pessimistic about it, but it's reality, again. We know we hardly get an off-day from these chaos, but so what if we get that break. We're still gonna go through it. Might as well, work all day long, 24/7, save more time and get more time to rest after completing what we're supposed to do. Sadly, we don't have portable chargers to rejuvenate us, too bad humans need sleep, and that takes up time and even wears us out easily. Once again, it's a never-ending cycle. How miserable. Okay, maybe I shouldn't even disagree 5%, cos' after writing this, I think, it's really 100% cruel to us humans! 

Dreams and reality, oh how sickening they can be. How smelly and irritating they are to me. No matter how much I hate them, I still think they could be my friends, friends to help me resolve the problems I'm facing. I think they'll be really efficient as they are 'dreams' and 'reality'. You may think I'm mad saying all these, but don't you think that's the only way out.  

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