You can't be the best, you'll always be number 2, always.

Sometimes, I wish my future will go smoothly as I've planned- perfect. No mistakes, no stains, just a simple and flawless life. But no, reality isn't that realistic afterall.

Preparing for exams, I'll spend hours studying. But for this time, I've been studying overtime, taken too much of my energy & health. Among 10 subjects, almost half of it, I was uncertain, afraid, worried. Compared to mid-term exams, I was much prepared and well mind-stated. But now.. For some papers, I was totally using guess to solve it. Subjects that were once I was confident in, totally turn another way round, and those subjects I previously don't have confident in... I dare not say another word..

Life's so fucked up man. I think. Okay. I think I put in efforts and my heart in. Everyday in class I'm always attentive. Worst still, some people are really catching up with me. I'm really frightened to lose the pace to them. I don't want them to be the winner. I wanna be the best among all.

Gosh. I think I've held too high expectations for myself..

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