But I'm not.

She's beautiful she's smart. She's everything that I have to do without. Why. Why is this world so competitive. Can't I for once be the winner.

Okay. I'm really. Really starting to get paranoid. Some people are just.. I don't know. They seem so perfect to me and I'm just like an ugly duckling. Yes. Destroying the oh-so-perfect image of others. Even my parents, they love to praise others but not me. They does to my sisters but just not me. Not jealous or whatsoever. Just feeling unfair.

What have I done wrong, like seriously. Who's the real me? Still in search of it. Everyday stepping into the school compound, thinking which mask should I wear today. Ugh. I hate life. It never fails to make me feel so.. I don't know.

Sometimes it's just the cheerful & happy me. But mostly, it's just the.. Oh-so-inhumane, selfish, emo (?), paranoid, me. Life's just, screwed.

And stop making amendments into my life. I'm sick of you.

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