13 years of living, today's the 13 October.

The number 13 sure sucks a lot. I didn't expect it to happen today.. Okay. I was unsure, 50-50 of guess. Okay. You can say I'm partially right. I finally understand how those people feel. Another sleepless night. How great.

Why must it always be me. The one that's being the most foolish. Alright. My brains sucks a lot too. But so many thoughts just gloom over me. I wanna ask, but I doubt I'll get what I want. Worst, guts are hindering me.

Yes. I'm a coward. I'd rather have me suffer than know the truth. Gosh man. I swear I can't stay like this forever. I'll be then the one who's gonna lose all the time, letting people take advantage. This sucks.

The feeling on the verge of breaking down. You still talk to me. Wow. I'm surprised. I doubt we could still be friends you know. Cos' the impact too strong, too forceful and merciless. It's making me drown under the memories. Heart ache is like hundreds of arrows piercing through you. And no matter how much arrows are threw, you're still able to withstand it.

You shown no remorse or regret. Wow. I'm shocked. You took it away, just like that. You thought it was meant to be like that, but no. Selfish. All I can say is. Can't you even figure out I'm venting out my anger on you when you're asking me some fucking retarded questions?!

Great. This happened. And I'm worried for tomorrow's results. It's gonna be... I bet. I don't have confidence. Yes. I know. I feel trapped. I feel surrounded by this darkness. Without you, there's like no one to direct me now. I'm all lost. All lost. Lost. Completely. I can't differentiate what's right or wrong. Everything seems to be in a mess. You used to be like a beacon, but now, I don't see any glimmer of life.

It sucks to see you go.

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