Before reading this post, please make precautions as I can really be very offensive and nasty. Pardon me.

It all started like a brand new story. Things, just won't go the way you wanted. We're not God. We can't foresee what's planned for us. If we could, we'll already have taken notice of what to do once the incident (for example) happened. Too bad. Life's unpredictable.

Bootlickers, I really envy you guys. Can I be your disciple, so that I'll be a master at bootlicking too? Seriously, I really don't know why. Last year, 'some' people said I bootlicked by form teacher, that's why she likes me. Actually. No. I was a capable and diligent girl that obeys her. Plus, I was my school vice-head. So yeah. But now, it's a totally different matter.

Bet you guys know what is bootlicking. Yeah, acting or behaving super nice and obedient to your elder, deliberately. Just to get attention, or maybe, status and rank? Yeah. I feel inferior. Really. I feel intimidated. Maybe, I was built too high last time, and I can't take the sudden collapse I'm facing now. Collapse, yeah, when a building collapse, blame in on the foundation. I had never once get beaten till like this. I never once lost to some people that I belittle (cos' I know their weaknesses). Maybe, all this is my retribution? I don't know. I just hope things get better, like how I wanted it when I pray to God. Maybe, I placed my dignity too high up, thinking too highly of myself when there's more better players out there. Maybe, people need time to recognize me? Oh wait. No. Or else, how would my skipping coach be so pleased with me? And my teachers (last year) too.

I totally hate the feeling when I feel like I've lost to someone who sucks. I totally hate it when that particular gets the attention. I hate it when she shows her that 'indescribable' expression. I hate it when she gets the thing I want. I totally feel intimidated by her. How can that even happened when she's like... Plus, we're classmates. And I would have to face her everyday when school reopens. Oh gosh. Nevertheless, there's this little angel in heart, that's always consoling me, telling me that, I should give me best in whatever I do, I should put the most effort in it, try my best, and never ever admit defeat. Or else, I'll not named Cassandra.

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